Musings of a Servant of Allah
Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest. (13:28)Archive for June, 2009
On Jordan
SubhanAllah. I don’t ever want to leave Kharabsheh. What a blessed neighbourhood! I live directly opposite the zawiya and am therefore neighbours with Sheikh Nuh, and I have never, ever been happier in life. Even the dust on my shoes has barakah (blessings), because this is the land upon which Prophets walked, and that in itself is healing.
The peace in this place is impossible to put into words. Every day, we wake up to the adhan for tahajjud. I never thought I’d ever be this blessed. Alhamdulilah. My days are filled with studying Arabic, Shafi’i fiqh, Hadith, Seerah….going to zawiya for Hizb Al-Bahr and Latifiyyas, visiting Um Sahl for her women’s lessons…subhanAllah. I couldn’t ask for more.
As much as I miss my family and friends back in Sydney…this is the place where I want to be. May Allah bring those who seek Him into the safety of Kharabsheh, inshaAllah.
Almost there…
Alhamdulilah, only a few more days left til I fly to Jordan
Hasn’t quite hit me yet, and it probably won’t, not until I’m on the plane with my brother! Please pray that we’ll arrive safely, and return safely too, God willing. Packing up and leaving everyone and everything I know is exciting, especially after such turmoil over the past few years of my life. A fresh start, in the company of those loved by Allah. I can’t ask for more, alhamdulilah. Part of me misses med school (crazy, I know lol) but the rest of me knows that this break is for the best.
My trials remain, as always. Despite the obvious pain, my hardships are a means to reaching Allah, and I’m learning to be optimistic and think the best of my Lord, and my circumstances. Like Sheikh Nuh said to us in the Sydney Suhba, out of all the infinite possibilities for our lives, Allah has chosen the absolute best for us, in His Divine Wisdom.
You are exactly where you need to be. It’s up to you to use this moment to draw closer to God, or stray away. So whether it be the loss of a loved one, your health, your wealth – whatever it may be – it happened because God willed it, and He loves you, and He wants you to return to Him. It’s the nature of the human being to forget….the root word for the arabic word for human (insaan) is naasiya, which means ‘to forget’. So these blows of fate, no matter how painful, are gentle reminders that God is the one in control, and that He is the only one whom we can seek solace from. What a lonely existence it is, without Him. So ask Him! He loves to be asked. Another beautiful gem Sheikh Nuh gave us at the Sydney Suhba was this: each time the tongue of the servant utters a prayer for something, know that Allah wants to give it to him.
If there’s one thing that can fill your heart with distraction and empty it from any longing for God, it’s music! So check this link out, and download that mp3 file.
Here’s an interesting article:
Getting Rid of the Need for Approval
Posted by Abu Ulfah in Guidance, Priorities, Reflection, The Self on 03 15th, 2009 | no responses
Bismillāh ar-Rahmān ar-Rahīm
In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful
On getting rid of the need to look to creation for approval
Strive to purify your heart from the fear of creation and from putting your hopes in them, for this would make you remain silent when faced with falsehood, compromise your Dīn and neglect exhorting to good and forbidding evil, this would be humilation enough, for a mu’min is strong by his Lord, he has no fear and no hope except in Him.
When one of your brother Muslims offers you something by way of showing affection, take it if you need it, thank Allāh for He is the real giver and thank the one whom Allāh has chosen to deliver it to you. If you do not need it, see whether it would be better for your heart to take it or refuse it, if you refuse, do it tactfully so as not to hurt the heart of the giver, for the feelings of a Muslim have great rank with Allāh.
Beware of refusing for the sake of acquiring a reputation, or of accepting for your lust, however, to take for lust is better than to turn down to acquire a reputation of ascetism and of turning away from dunyā. The truthful and sincere will not be confused by this, his Lord gives him a light in his heart by which he knows what is required of him.
Imām ‘Abdallāh Ibn ‘Alawī al-Haddād
Risālah Ādāb Sulūk al-Murīd
http://www.spiritual-tendencies.com/2009/0…d-for-approval/
Excitement!
Salams world!
I’m so thrilled! InshaAllah Sheikh Nuh and his wife Um Sahl are arriving on Thursday! I’ve waited a year for this, and subhanAllah, what a year it’s been. So much has happened, and alhamdulilah, I’m so relieved that I’m in a much better place now.
My health issues have stabilised, and I’m looking forward to my trip to Jordan on the 23rd of June. Seeing my team of health care providers has really helped, alongside attending my weekly dhikr gatherings. Healing isn’t complete when it’s just the medical. There’s the spiritual side that needs nurturing too.
I’m currently catching up with friends and spending time with family. A year ago, I couldn’t have been able to imagine the general state of internal peace I’ve been blessed with. Verily, after every hardship, there is relief! Seeing old friends from med school is also so lovely…they’ll be interns in a matter of months. I’m so proud of how far they’ve come. It’s a journey I stepped away from, but here’s to my own version of a bright shiny future. My friends will all be incredible doctors. Caring, competent and insightful. Wonder what I’ll be?
I can’t wait to embark on the Shifa Summer Program in Jordan! It’ll be a welcome break after my YEARS of secular education. My decision to put medical school on hold has still ruffled a few feathers, despite my own state of contentment. It’s puzzling when spectators to my life are upset when I’m not! Strange, strange.
Sheikh Naeem raised an interesting point in one of his lectures. He said that the Muslim ummah is in desperate need of saviours to lead us out of the darkness of ignorance….but our best minds have been sent to study Medicine at Harvard because their parents want comfortable retirements. Sad, but true. Chasing after material wealth will never bring lasting contentment. Sure, we do need Muslim doctors to respond to the unique spiritual needs of Muslim patients, but it’s a sad day when Muslim parents are devastated when their children stop medical school to become scholars instead. And it happens.